Life can be a gruesome ordeal for some people. Mental illness has sent many people to our streets. It is a crime in our society that we have not found a way to house the sick to help those who can not help themselves. Those homeless who are healthy and lost; we must find ways to rehabilitate these people and bring them into mainstream society. Easier said then done. Famous author and philosopher Mark Twain wrote: “The worst loneliness is not being comfortable with yourself.” When my wife passed away I was surrounded with friends and family, yet I was alone in my abis of despair.
I had doubts about my roll in my marriage, guilt that I was not good for her. I sought solace In travel and writing. I began to read about poets and philosophers. I came across Mark Twains famous quotes and realized I needed to work on today and flush my past wrong doings and work on a better me. Only when we have a good feeling for our selves can we move on to a better life.
As I grow older, I am sixty-seven years old and feel all my life’s aches and pains, “age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don’t mind, it don’t matter.” Mark Twain’s truism hit me right in the face. Slap! Wake up and smell the roses. I embraced growing older and search for new adventure every day. I live in Aguacate, Costa Rica with my girlfriend, Corina and my two dogs, LaLa and LuLu and enjoy every moment I can.
Buddha was asked, “What have you gained from meditation?” He replied, ” Nothing! However, let me tell you what I have lost: anger, anxiety, depression, insecurity, fear of old age and death.” I am in search for this enlightenment with the comfort I will find peace within myself. I am learning how to take a few minutes of the day to remember how lucky I am? What is wrong with meditation when you first wake up in the morning? I lay in bed,thank God for this extra day in my life, the prosperity he gave me, pray for happiness to continue in my life and family. I look into my bedroom mirror and smile. I like what I see and ask God to show me how to help people feel the same way.
” The less you respond to negative people, the more peaceful your life becomes.” I am working at following this precept. Eliminating negative thought from my mind and work at following Buddha’s words. I do not look to change people only my being around negativity. How about you? Does Mark Twain and Buddha make sense?
We live on a mountain top
Over looking God’s new crop
Red, yellow, orange and purple
Green and pink to be more subtle
In his wisdom he enthused
Blue skies as our morning muse
Walking down the brick laden driveway
Watching the dogs as they play
Realizing the draw of the cards
How lucky we truly are
Fresh air, a subtle quiet
A peacefulness I have become reliant
LaLa and LuLu chase after a lizard
Who disappears like a magical wizard
Frustrated at their loss
They dig at the bright green moss
Searching for their prize
That disappeared before their eyes
I continue to walk towards the gate
I whistle, they run to me at a furious rate
I stop and turn around
They sit at my feet making me proud
I say “good girls !
Now go to Mom!”
Rushing pass the palms
Around the corner into mom’s lap
Surprising her making her laugh
In their excitement they forgot to sit
A practice they like to omit
Mom smiles as I turn the corner
Head to the rocking chair to join her
A beautiful short walk this sunny morning
Now we relax watching the turkey buzzards soaring
The sparrows darting about
The bees taking their succulents out
The flowers and grass swaying in the breeze
Content, at ease
Just another morning walk